[Artwork] Overwhelmed and Defeated

So I finally had time to pick up my graphics tablet and continue a WIP. Unfortunately, I got stuck on drawing hair again and I tried to watch some speed paint/tutorial videos...

Then I got overwhelmed =__= This always happens whenever I get stuck on something and try to look for references.. I was so overwhelmed I took 2 hours just to draw a chibi one.. *sighs*

I can't explain this without sounding like I'm bragging... but please bear with me a bit... I usually learn fast and I subconsciously expect myself to get things at the first try not because I'm confident about my skills but because I'm used to learning things quickly.

Whenever I'm asked about my strengths and weaknesses in job interviews, I usually say that learning fast is both a strength and a weakness of mine because I get exploited impatient when I can't understand and I try to look for the easiest way rather than practice for days, months or years. =_=

I also keep on saying, "As long as you have the right tools (doesn't have to be the best), you can learn or do anything." On the other hand, I have contradicted myself on this blog many times when ever I post about make up, painting and drawing hair on my digital works *khhhhhhh* =_=

*sighs*

[Personal] First Impressions and Unexpected Assurance

Out of all the book reports I did for school, Jane Austin's Pride and Prejudice, was the only one I loved and enjoyed... Well, that and Og Mandino's The Gift of Acabar, which was my brother's book report =_= Side note: I just realized that I snatched books from my brother when we were young.. I even stole a book for his report. >_<

I chose the novel for my book report because of the title, "Pride" and "Prejudice" Since I studied in an exclusive school for girls and that school was plagued with "Prejudice" I thought the book would be perfect. I seem to have acquired that judgmental trait... I stayed away from a certain someone because I thought this person was bad news. I was wrong...

[Random] Traumatized by Christmas Lights

Driving around during the "Ber" months/Christmas Season with a migraine is the worst possible combo you can do. =_= All those Christmas lights (and Christmas Traffic) will be the death of me. Auras and all, I felt like I was driving home while looking through a poorly made DIY Bokeh lens... =_=

Bokeh (Image Credit), My head's starting to hurt again =_=

Not to mention those inconsiderate drivers putting on their headlights on high and using their fog lights as well... =_= I wanna smash those headlights to bits!!! *ROAD RAGE ACTIVATED*!! ....Road Rage Disarmed! Migraine and Road Rage cannot coexist. =_=

[Personal] Unhealthy Competition

As much as possible I try to stay away from competitive people... They are so exhausting to be with... Here's a quote-able quote about unhealthy competitions:

There was this underlying competition that got in the way of any real conversation... - Brad Pitt

 He said this about Tom Cruise after working with him for the movie "Interview with the Vampire." It's so perfect... you can't have a "real conversation" with someone who keeps on competing with you. I'd rather read a book than engage in a conversation laced with malicious pleasure.

It's hard to work with or even be friends with people who's obsessed with competing. Besides, you can't really say that you're friends when you're seen as a rival, right? It's better to stay away.

I don't really care who's better, for goodness sake, just let me live my life. I don't need to bring anyone down just to feel confident about myself, how about competing with me in that area?

[Random] Random Photo Dump - Animal Crossing New Leaf

I was playing Animal Crossing New Leaf while waiting for my task to complete and then I noticed how quirky my avatar was in the game.

I'm sharing some random screenshots of the game. I was quite addicted to it that I stopped my artsy fartsy activities for a while...

Funky Fashion sense~!

I should  have taken a better picture of my room. My wall is covered with books... I wish I could have my own mini library in real life...

[Random] Secretly Greatly

I just watched Secretly Greatly. Lee Hyun Woo and Kim Soo Hyun in one movie? Do you even need to think about it? >_< I was totally crushing over Kim Soo Hyun when I was watching Dream High, I even have 2 posts about him on this blog ("fangirl-ing" in 2011). As for Lee Hyun Woo, he was so cute in the series To the Beautiful You, I put him in my watch list... He's actually the reason why I watched the movie...

The reviews I read about the movie were mostly negative, saying that the movie was a total mess. It is, but I liked it... maybe I'm used to messy Korean movies (like Spell bound) or since I've watched movies/series with spies (like King 2 Hearts or Spy Myung Wol) and all, I didn't need an explanation about what was happening in the movie... =_= That's probably it... oh wait...

Dainty Photo Dump

Such a waste not to post. I edited these pictures for this post but decided not to include them. Since I felt like practicing my editing skills =_= I tried to make them more presentable at least. 

Handmade earrings, dunno what stone though

Random: Unknown Visitor

Just got the scare of my life... I saw a baby snake in our dining room. I spotted the odd moving worm near the dining table.

At first, I thought it was just an earthworm but it was unusually longer than the typical earthworm, it was moving sideways and was moving too fast. I was starting to freak out but my dad was out and the rest of the people at home were sound asleep. I had to make sure if it was really a baby snake or just a hyper earthworm before screaming like a sissy.

Googles: Difference between worm and snake movement... "Snakes move in the s pattern" just great... *freaks out more*

Even though a snake that size could possibly be as harmless as a worm, I wasn't sure and I was alone. T_T Whatever happened to the fearless me? I'm not really scared of snakes but it shouldn't be in the house.

Unfortunately, I had no choice but to get rid of it and it took me 30 minutes to just muster enough courage to do the job. I was shaking like crazy the whole time. I was scared and sorry at the same time. I didn't want to kill it but I wasn't sure it was harmless. : (

I was able to get a closer look at my unidentified visitor afterwards... it had scales. I didn't take pictures and I don't want to post pictures of snakes that resemble what I had to deal with today because I'm still freaked out T_T

Ugh... I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight..

Warning: This Organism is Extremely Giddy...

Thank you Nelli for the "pampalubag loob"

Coffee, art materials, Peppero and Jo Jung Suk = a very giddy blogger. 

Today is such a spaz fest! I have been craving for McDonald's Iced coffee for at least 2 weeks now. I'm still on my coffee ban but today I finally gave in. Coffee~!

While drinking my coffee and watching Jo Jung Suk's new drama, the art materials I ordered online arrived! Apparently, I'd drop everything (even my current rom-com crush) for my art materials~!

I finally got the rubber stamps I wanted! >_< I can't wait for Christmas~! I've been looking for rubber stamps since last year but most of the stamps I saw were WAY too expensive. I got my alphabet stamps for 450 Pesos from Patrick Lovebird. Though I was looking for the chibi character stamps for my journal (yes, aside from my blog I do keep a journal), the alphabet stamps are more practical, right?

[Personal] I Need Space...

For my books.. >: ) Bwahahaha!

[Random] A Little Shorter...

A bob? Hmm... maybe not? =_=

It wasn't a good idea to draw when my eyes and hands are tired (Messed up her legs..) =_=

[Random] Hello World;

Today, I was supposed to post about a recent trip I made with a few colleagues early this month but I found myself too tired (khhh~) must (khhh~) postpone (khhh~)... =__=

I'm exhausted

Anyway, I felt like I've been neglecting my blog lately but I have a lot of things to post including the trip, a few artworks and a mall rage moment. Must.. force... brain... to think... =_=

I don't know how developers do it... My brain is starting to turn into mush because of my task at work. @_@ I remember N posting this on plurk:

There are people who like testing. I sure am not one of them. K, Ekai, how do you do it?

Right back at you... =_=

Again, just wanted to say "I'm temporarily brain-dead but still alive~"

/Insert more brain static here:
khhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

[Random] Beanie Baboy (Piggies)

I wanted to replace my Facebook cover with something that I drew and I came up with these piggies. I really don't know what made me put them in tea cups =_= I was being as random as usual. Bean shaped pigs in tea cups, yay... =_=

Not sure if anyone has noticed but I have been drawing a lot recently... I needed a distraction from some overwhelming stuff, mostly petty issues though. I'm currently looking for a different outlet as I have exhausted my creative juices.

Random: Yet Another Work In Progress

I made another random sketch today as I ran out of things to watch =_= I've been very particular about the things I watch lately. I found myself staying away from really heavy drama or when the plot gets too heavy, I stop watching. I think my tolerance for stress is really low at the moment.

Someday, I'll finish this sketch

And before I turn this into a rant post, I didn't plan on drawing this. I wanted to draw a drowning chibi... well.. erm... to represent what happened to me today. Well, I didn't drown or anything! *sigh* If I had my photograph taken while I was practicing, I would probably look like I was drowning... I think...

*Flails arms like a crazy lady*

Need to Escape... A Work In Progress

Recently, I feel like I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown and the weather is so uncooperative. Just trying to get my mind off some things, so I randomly drew something.

I wanted it to be a little more... gloomy... =_=

I've been seeing pictures of forests and stuff all over FB, YT and the blogs I frequent so I wanted to try drawing something like this as well. It isn't as good as the posts I see though... but I'm satisfied for now, a least I know what to do.

Random: Reflections of a Socially Awkward Girl...

The awkward girl strikes back! Just another random thought I wanted to share...

I hate that I'm such a dork like 99.9% of the time. My friends are so used to it that they say "it's part of my charm" (so to speak) =_= but most importantly, it's a form of entertainment, especially when I do my random gravity checks on extremely smooth surfaces. =__=

They love seeing me all flustered and deer-in-headlights-frozen-in-fear. Just like what happened this afternoon, when my teammates started to tease me about a certain person just because I had his number on my phone. I got so flustered that when he was right behind me, I kept on smiling like a dork and was unable to speak coherently. @_@

On the other hand, I sincerely think that the teasing is somehow a form of affection and sort of a sign that they have accepted me no matter how dorky or awkward I am, right?

Quick Update: Staycation

Posting a quick update of my Holy Week "Staycation." Holiday work was canceled and I wasn't able to plan anything because of it so I had a lot of free time ^__^. 

I didn't do much though, the heat made me catatonic and my PMS was making me eat everything in sight. =_= Worst combination ever... Anyway...

Art Attack:

I experimented with my new molds and the new clay blocks I bought last week. Premo's Raw Sienna is such a perfect chocolate color! I almost didn't buy it because I looked brown with green undertones at the store, I should have bought more!

They look real, don't they? >: )

Photo practice at Watami

Once again, Madz of pigoutsessions.com, and myself went out to eat. We were supposed to eat at a different place so she can review one of our favorite Japanese restaurants (and for me to practice taking pictures) but the line was too long and we both were lacking sleep and I was getting grumpy... Although were were already third in line, we still decided to give our spot away to a colleague and went to off to look for a different place to eat at. We ended up at Watami (@SM Mall of Asia)~!

I did say I was planning to practice my photography but I got lazy and left SLR in the car. =_= If I knew that we'd change locations, I would've brought it with me! I was only able to take pictures using my phone camera... T_T No photography practice this week... BUT! I was still able to play around with Photoshop for a bit...

Salmon and Flying Fish Roe Stone Pot

Tonpeiyaki

O_o I have two food related blog posts this week... Oh no.. there goes my diet!

Swensen's Strawberry In Love

Last March 5, I accompanied my friend, Madz of Pig Out Sessions, to Swensen's food tasting event for bloggers at their MOA branch. It was my first time going to a blogger event, despite my blog being 3 years old, I still am a nobody in the blogging circle since I kept this blog very "random" and personal haha.

I love the lights at Swensen's.

Anyway, the food tasting event at Swensen's was great. Although, my introverted self kicked in and I couldn't take pictures because I was too shy. Even though someone (I didn't get his name) tried to encourage me to take more pictures. >_<

Stupid Awkward little girl~

One of Those Days...

I'm having another artist block phase right now. I can think of so many things to do to cure me of my boredom but I can't seem to lift a finger and try anything out. I'm not going through anything dark and depressing though, I'm actually happy at work and with my friends. I feel absolutely positive, Considering my oh-so-dark attitude in life.

However, I think I ran out of my creative juices to try anything. I always bring out my art materials or my nail polish but I can't seem to do anything or even start. I can't say that I lost interest in my hobbies since I always think about what nail art design I should do or what digital art project I should try or what I polymer clay charms I could make to give to my friends. I've also been searching for kemper cutters for my polymer clay hobby...

I wonder what this could be... laziness? But I bought a 10 session coupon for swimming lessons and I have 9 more sessions for my tennis training. Most of my friends and my family think I am the most sedentary and catatonic person alive and yet I willingly enrolled in these physical activities.... Oh my goodness.. what have I gotten myself into?! Hahahaha... but honestly, I absolutely enjoyed my first Tennis session and I can't wait for the next! My whole body aches from it but it almost feels like a battle scar of some sort. Something to brag about, "I played tennis again after 11 years!" Hahaha!

Geez... Maybe I just have so many things to do that I am overwhelmed... I'll try to wait for a few more days to pass. Or maybe I should ask my dad? Lol.