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3/23/11

Insecurities

It's summer and I fear the day I have to wear a swimsuit... I can't say I hate myself at the moment... I just hate a whole lot of stuff about myself right now... what I can say for sure is that I hate the feeling of being insecure. So, I really have to do something about it before I self-destruct again... I'll take a geeky approach in solving my insecurities with a for 4 step process to solving problems.

*GEEK!* <-- I know.  >_< But what ever helps, right?

I. UNDERSTANDING THE PROBLEM - Here I will list all the things I am insecure about myself... I should probably add why I'm insecure about it. In order of stressfulnes!

- Milia - I can't wear foundation because of this!!!!
- Body size - I think I over-did my new year's resolution to become healthy
Lack of Girly Clothes - I think I ran out of pretty clothes... I wanna look pretty for my BF
Money - Need I say more?
- Freckles - I think everyone wants super clear skin...
Skin color - As much as I want super fair skin... I also like being morena.. so I'm settling for having any as long as I have an even skin tone. (MorenaA spanish word used to describe Latinas who are tanned/dark).
- Dry Skin - My dry skin is making me look old and stressed

II. DEVISING A PLAN - My strategy is to prioritize all my insecurities on how easy it is to deal with or if I really have to take action...
- Body size - This will take a lot of effort but I know I can do this by removing all my binge sessions (probably a little exercise but I can promise it)
 - Money - This actually contradicts my effort to remove all insecurities I have... BUT the obvious solution to this is budgeting... this can come hand in hand with my effort to improve my body size...
- Skin Color - I'm planning to buy Gluthatione pills today.. all I have to do is overcome my laziness and be religious about taking the pills
- Freckles - I've already been trying to remove them.. I think I just need to be more religious about it.
- Dry skin - I really don't know what to do about this, but most people around me says I just have to drink more water and of course put on some lotion. This could be easier than the next insecurities I have since I think I grew fond of using lotions... I'm just lazy.
- Lack of Girly Clothes - MONEY is the answer.. and a little style advice from people.. this is super difficult because I am trying to save up.
- Milia - Because I don't have money and I need to go to a dermatologist to rid me of my milia.. I'm having a difficult time with this... I tried almost everything I can to get rid of my milia... Dermatologists can cost a fortune... /sob


III. CARRYING OUT THE PLAN
Should not be lazy!!! (Enough said)  *sob*

IV. LOOKING BACK
Should I post before and after pix for each and every.... O_O!!!  Probably not for the money problems =_=

3/6/11

Abort Mission!

I was supposed to take pictures of Ui Hirasawa today, so I started cleaning my room... However, I got carried away cleaning and went full force on just cleaning. I wanted to clear up one shelf for my future nendoroid collection but something painful happened...


I stubbed my foot and a piece of my toe nail came off

My dad put the bandages on my foot.. =_= doesn't really look like the work of a doctor. He admitted that he never had any practice putting on bandages hahaha! I was a really careful kid when I was young.

I couldn't help doodling on it (digitally). My dad accidentally made the bandages look like a piggy~

=_= I wonder how long my nails would grow back...

hmmm.. At least, my stubbed toe helped me get through watching black swan...

12/15/10

1 year of blogging~! 2009 New Year Resolution Fulfilled~



I can't believe it! It's been a year already?! ^__^ Happy Birthday blog!!!!~ Weeeeee~! >__<

10/26/10

Hobby: 'Jack of All Trades, Master of None"

My hobby seems to be evolving every time... every quarter of a year I think I change a hobby... In less than a year, I had the following hobbies:

- Blogging
- Photography
- Pixel Art
- Video Games
- Beauty stuff
- Polymer clay accessories
- Cooking finger foods
- Gadgets

I've never mastered any of these hobbies.. I've never mastered any of my hobbies... hmmm, wait!  My close friend said that "Video Games" shouldn't be considered as a hobby but a leisure. Makes sense. She also said that most of my hobbies are related to art.

"Art is your hobby" ^__^

However, it still doesn't change the fact that I have not mastered anything... I've only started playing around with Polymer Clay and I'm already transitioning to wanting to make dollhouses and then last week someone said that she used to have a project about needle tatting when she was in elementary and I'm getting interested about it... I keep on changing hobbies =_=

As for the polymer clay hobby, I'm still into it. I'm just so frustrated because I want to be good at it and I ended up looking at blogs of people who are more into creating scale miniatures for dollhouses. I immediately knew that I nowhere near their level of creativity and skill.

I love looking at their blogs at the same time I feel so insecure. Anyway here are the blogs I love to look at:
Snowfern Clover
Les P'titsMobiles 
My world on the table
joojoo 

Snowfern Clover and My world on the table are the biggest influences of my hobby evolution =_= while Joojoo is a big inspiration and Les P'titsMobiles.. T_T biggest insecurity (I love his work).

Joojoo and Les P'titsMobiles both have a "series" or a theme for their creation (snails and sea creatures).. I want to have something like that...

9/27/10

Trauma: Joe's Appartment

Last week, Thursday evening, around 9 PM, I noticed that there were weird scratchy sounds coming from my windows. Something was crawling on my screen... I thought it was a rat and I didn't mind it because rats can be easily caught using fly paper and a drop of honey as bait... :(

Unfortunately (*sob*), it was not a rat.. it was actually a swarm of cockroaches! HUHUHUHU!!! I'm not really afraid of cockroaches (well, after this I AM!), I'm just disgusted by them. The swarm was coming from a hole in my window.. T_T

My dad forgot to move his compost whatever for his plants at the back of our house.. and that attracted the cockroaches to our back yard then to my grandmother's room and my room. My dad was in Saigon and there was no reliable person at home... >: (

I was so helpless against a swarm of flying ipis (cockroaches). I just cried until my boyfriend came to my rescue...

(Tagged this with the "Evil Step Mother" label because the swarm was probably looking for her).

9/8/10

September Wallpaper.

Ever since I tendered my resignation, I haven't been given much to do at work. "Just try to look busy" as per my team lead. So, I decided to change my Lineage 2 wall paper for a calendar wall paper from Smashing Magazine

Here's the wall paper i got:


Hahaha Domo is so cute!!!! I edited it a bit

What are you looking at?! HAHAHAHAHA he's mad at the wandering eyes of people who pass by~
(I aslo marked my last day but my last day was moved to tomorrow~!)

9/2/10

Quick post: National Issues (in Tagalog)

Will post in my language because I'll be venting about racist comments about my people...

Here goes:

Puro galit na lang pinapairal nila, so tama na pag papakumbaba at pag hingi ng tawad. Nag sorry na ang presidente natin, tama na un. At least nga nag sorry pa eh. Pabayaan na lang natin sila dahil gusto nila manatiling galit.

Galit sa mundo. Tandaan nyo, pinoy nga ang naka sakit sa inyo, pero pinoy din ang lumigtas sa inyo.

Kung ang mga pinoy na lungkot at madaming namatay, sila pinili nilang magalit sa atin at ibaling ang matinding galit nila sa mga pinoy na naka tira sa bansa nila.

Ayoko na..

English mode again...

Here's what it looks to some people:

Because of one hostage taker, everyone in my country is seen as a criminal by their country.

Too much hate.

8/27/10

I Spy

I saw some person's blog.. and it's full of trash talking... too much hate..

The person made a blog dedicated to the person he hates.  The irony.

3/8/10

Monday sickness

Ok... so I'm in dire need of Coffee...

I decided to drown my irritability in a coffee based caramel affogato... On my way to my preferred starbucks (there are 3 starbucks branches near my office), I saw a blind man trying to cross the street and a stupid biker hit the blind man... he already saw the blind guy who was trying to cross the street. Though he was slow he wasn't careful... I looked at him in disgust. I wish he knew that it was because he hit the blind guy...

Most Drivers in Manila are too aggressive they don't even realize that they can hurt people. I think they don't even care if they do. Our previous driver also hit a kid on a bike in front of our gate. Instead of checking if the kid was safe or if he was hurt they both started blaming each other.

Why do you need to point the blame on someone... rather than think of the present they have to dwell on the past and blame people. Instead of thinking of a solution NOW, they think of who to blame... "Because of the people who colonized the Philippines, we have graft and corruption" I hear this line often. It may be true, but it doesn't do a thing. It is not a solution and it does not contribute to a possible solution. Just self gratification.

ugh... I hate this post already...

I was lucky enough to get a free upgrade on my Affogato... I ordered tall but the barista gave me a grande... I didn't feel comfortable about it.. I really wanted to pay for the extra.. T_T well at least I got something nice today. HOWEVER, I haven't consumed half of my drink and I'm already palpitating. A grande Affogato isn't something for me hahahaha.

What's in a name

Another post resulting from a lack of things to do at work plus procrastination

Is this your name?

just some snippets

Name Origin and Meaning: Forename:
Origin: Scandinavian (Root: Erica)
Meaning: Ruler of All

In ASCII binary it is... 01000101 01110010 01101001 01101011 01100001 00100000 01010110 01101001 01100011 01100101 01101110 01110100 01100101

Hahaha

3/7/10

Have you ever googled yourself?

Due to a sickeness called "Tamaditis" also known as Procrastination, I ended up google-ing my name in different ways.

Here are some funny Results:

Ekai
+ Page 1: Most were profiles of people with the same nickname and one website called "Ekaï Sushi Express"

~ Hahaha! Sushi is a term of endearment my boyfriend gave me. Hahaha

+ Page 2: more profiles and another website called "Ekai"

~ another food page >_<>

Ekai is a fast and efficient method of providing busy people with healthy and delicious food options.........delivered to your door.

Just select a meal plan from our range and we will deliver the ingredients and any recipes required right to your door.

No more 'what's for tea tonight?' With ekai you can eat a different meal every night of the year if you wishMy full name:
+ Mostly people with the same name except for my twitter account... =_=

Nickname + Surname:
+ My facebook account...
+ my facebook friends........

+ a blog of my friend who mentioned me...

I hate you facebook...

oh... I came across toggle.com as well

3/6/10

Playing around with my Cam

For some weird reason I've been unusually restless whenever I'm on my way to work or on my way home, I tried to distract myself and took some pictures while I was in the car... Our new driver was cooperating a bit and tried slow down when I was taking a shot. Thank's kuya Mario. hahaha


Impending doom for all drivers out there














Accidental panning shot of makati hahaha.. damned traffic.














After a few meters. *click*













I tried to get a shot of the Pasig River..














hahaha I wonder if it would also light up at night.













At night.. I love this shop

3/5/10

Do not correct my Grammation!

"Do not correct my grammation"

(Disclaimer: stop reading... *hindi constructive ang post na ito*)

This has been a joke between my friends for someone who thinks he/she has perfect English. I admit that I do not write and speak perfect English, but you have to admit that you can help but notice someone who thinks so highly of himself though his grammar needs a total make over. Even though I said I'm not perfectly fluent in English, I get really OC (obsessive/compulsive) about a lot of things regarding grammar AND diction. I don't want to sound snotty but I just can't help it when people forget to use the words "a" and "the" or forgets about verb tenses. Diction is usually what gets on my nerves most of the time.

I decided to post about grammar and diction because I was editing a test document. It's supposed to be a tool for process improvement, however, it has too much information packed in one work sheet, it does not have proper labels, no comments on how another person can use it and annoying choice of words..


Hmmm ugly screenshot... anyway, At the upper left of the file there were 2 labels, the first one was for the screen we were testing and the second "Pre-condition" which are requirements needed before testing. I changed it to "Prerequisite" because having "Test Condition" right after "Pre-condition" is confusing and redundant.

Anyway, I came across another interesting guide:
The Top 24 Grammatical Terms. Basic Grammatical Terms That We Should Have Learned in School by Richard Nordquist.

Here are the 24 terms, though it would be better to read the article.

1. Active Voice
The verb form in which the subject of the sentence performs or causes the action expressed by the verb. Contrast with Passive Voice.

2. Adjective
The part of speech (or word class) that modifies a noun or a pronoun.

3. Adverb
The part of speech that modifies a verb, adjective, or other adverb.
Example:

4. Clause
A group of words that contains a subject and a predicate. A clause may be either a sentence (independent clause) or a sentence-like construction included within another sentence (dependent clause).

5. Complex Sentence
A sentence that contains at least one independent clause and one dependent clause.

6. Compound Sentence
A sentence that contains at least two independent clauses, often joined by a conjunction.

7. Conjunction
The part of speech that serves to connect words, phrases, clauses, or sentences. See also: coordinating conjunction, subordinating conjunction, correlative conjunction, and conjunctive adverb.

8. Declarative Sentence
A sentence that makes a statement.

9. Dependent Clause
A group of words that begins with a relative pronoun or a subordinating conjunction. A dependent clause has both a subject and a verb but (unlike an independent clause) cannot stand alone as a sentence. Also known as a subordinate clause.

10. Direct Object
A noun or pronoun that receives the action of a transitive verb.

11. Exclamatory Sentence
A sentence that expresses strong feelings by making an exclamation.

12. Imperative Sentence
A sentence that gives advice or instructions or that expresses a request or a command.

13. Independent Clause
A group of words made up of a subject and a predicate. An independent clause (unlike a dependent clause) can stand alone as a sentence. Also known as a main clause.

14. Indirect Object
A noun or pronoun that indicates to whom or for whom the action of a verb in a sentence is performed.

15. Interrogative Sentence
A sentence that asks a question.

16. Noun
The part of speech that is used to name a person, place, thing, quality, or action and can function as the subject or object of a verb, the object of a preposition, or an appositive.

17. Passive Voice
A verb form in which the grammatical subject receives the verb's action. Contrast with active voice.

18. Predicate
One of the two main parts of a sentence or clause, modifying the subject and including the verb, objects, or phrases governed by the verb.

19. Prepositional Phrase
A group of words made up of a preposition, its object, and any of the object's modifiers.

20. Pronoun
A word that takes the place of a noun.

21. Sentence
A word or (more commonly) a group of words that expresses a complete idea. Conventionally, a sentence includes a subject and a verb. It begins with a capital letter and concludes with a mark of end punctuation.

22. Subject
The part of a sentence that indicates what it is about.

23. Tense
The time of a verb's action or state of being, such as past, present, and future.

24. Verb
The part of speech that describes an action or occurrence or indicates a state of being.


There you have it Grammar Grammar~

Anyway, here's another good read:

Seven Secrets to Success in English 101 By Richard Nordquist

2/14/10

Happy Valentine's~

Quick Post~

Will be busy *wink* Quality time with BF~!

2/2/10

I am sick

so I finally got a check up... as I said in a previous entry I've been having problems with my tummy... turns out it was amebiasis...

came from the salad I've been eating...

2/1/10

Tummy Tummy...

I really don't know what's happening to me. I have been trying to take care of myself more... but I seem to be so tired every weekend.. and my Tummy acts up every other day, it's either my hyperacidity or I get LBM.. or both.. I've been eating sandwiches for lunch and salads for breakfast. I try not to be too full or "busog" so my reflux won't be triggered...

I don't know what to do...

1/22/10

Bibi~ (Pixel Art)

(Warning: Image Heavy post)

Graphic Arts has been one of my frustrations in life I wanted to study fine arts or any art for college but I thought that it can be a hobby rather than a career... I choose money over what I love to do. Right now all I can do is look at "what I could have been" if I pursued arts...

Around 2005 - 2007, I joined gaiaonline because of it's cuteness hahaha and I decorated my profile with pix from Bibi's art I came across her site today and I still love her art!

Here are some samples of her art... I really I wish I can be as skilled as bibi








. . .

WAAAA!!!! Bibi is also an artist for Lineage 2?!?!?! I just discovered Today... T_T lineage 2: SEA is closing tomorrow.. Here are some of Bibi's L2 work for PlayNC (This made me a bit depressed..)




T_T I'll post more of Bibi's work to cheer me up.. T_T



Waaa this is so cute


 


Here's one image that might be familiar to other people:



I really wish I can do the same thing Bibi can do... I wish I can post all her pix.. but, that would be rude...

Anyway time to go home~

Weekend here I come~!

1/21/10

Stray Kitten

Last monday, I thought I saw a dead kitten in the plant box in front of my house. I asked my grandmother's caretaker to accompany me to check the kitten. If it was dead, we had to put it some place where it wont smell when it decomposes...

To my surprise... the kitten was still alive >_< I'm actually afraid of cats... but when I saw it's face, I couldn't help but say "Awwwwwww" and apparently my brother had the same reaction when he saw it.

I asked the caretaker to bring the kitten inside.. secretly because my stepmother hates anything living humans, plants or animals. I had to tell my dad about the kitten after a day behind my step mother's back. He said "it's better to have cats than rats!"

I can keep it! wahahahaha


>_< I couldn't take a cute picture of it while we were trying to sneak it in... T_T It looks like a tiger in a different angle~

By the way... "it" doesn't have a name yet.. and I haven't checked if 'it' is a girl or a boy.. I hate work

for the mean time.. I call it "ming ming" ahahahaha

1/19/10

Who stole the cookie from the cookie jar~

More like Pizza from the Pizza box for me..

Some of my officemates from a different team had some pizza and they left some in our pantry, which is conveniently behind my workarea... The left overs were there for around 30 minutes and no one was brave enough to get a slice...

Fortunately~ The lights went out... at first I hesitated to get slice.. until the 2nd time the lights went out... Just when I was getting a slice for me and my seatmate... the lights were back T_T huhuhu I was caught in the act...

Just wanted to share.

1/13/10

Sniffles Day 3: Not Working...

I've been drinking more than 8 glasses of water a day... and 2 bottles of apple juice or orange juice every morning hoping this water therapy thing would work... I've also been eating Chicken Congee every morning. I was expecting to have a runny nose because of all the liquids I've been drinking instead I have a clogged nose.

I actually feel more dehydrated and tired...