6/11/11

Naughty blogger XD

I as much as I want to blog about my random stuff =_= my office internet connection is limited to just google and some not so popular websites... grrr...

So.. what have I been up to for the past few weeks?.. =_= Other than trying to adjust...trying out the things I hoarded in the mall beside my office~! My office actually has a bridge connecting to the mall~!

Anyway I went to Watson's after lunch and picked up some facial masks since I haven't tried any lately... I wanted to buy the Purederm Aloe Collagen Mask but I picked the Age Defying Collagen mask accidentaly...


It was kinda itchy like all the other sheet masks I've tried. So far the only sheet mask I loved was the Aloe Collagen mask...


This wasn't the first time I bought this rub on Whitening Mask from Montagne Jeunesse, I love products from this brand especially this mask in particular. Ever since I tried the aspirin mask, I have been obsessed about the smoothing effect of the DIY mask....

The whitening mask usually gives my baby smooth skin when I leave it overnight on my face, I haven't done it religiously as instructed so I can't say anything about the whitening effects.


I bought this Rub Me Tender Fog Peeling spray from Etude house quite a long time ago but I decided to mention it since I was talking about the aspirin mask effects...

This product also gives me baby butt smooth skin! I'm surprised that hardly anyone made a review about it. I love this product! It also smells like my cucumber melon perfume from bath and body works~!


I wish there are FREE miracle cures for skin problems... *sigh*

6/5/11

PERSONAL: I need to get this out...

For months, I have been crying my eyes out every weekend. Most people look forward to weekends, but not me. Every week the same promise is broken and I cry every time. My friends and officemates know me as a strong person but this time I can't be strong... I want to be strong... but it's so difficult to stop my tears. I wish I can give you my situation in detail... but I would rather say what I feel... I know I may say things that I might not mean but I really need to let this out...

I'm so tired of crying...
I want to give up on everything...
I feel like I'm being punished for having even a second of happiness...
I feel like I'm going crazy...
I want to disappear... I want to die but I don't want to kill myself...
I'm too scared of the pain...
I feel like I'm all alone...
I feel frustrated...
I want to hurt myself...
I don't want to feel anymore pain...
I want to escape...

I want to be happy again...
I don't want to cry anymore...
I want to overcome this disgusting self pity I'm feeling for myself... I have to...
I feel empty...

I can promise that I won't do anything stupid... even if I wanted to hurt myself, I'm too scared to do it. I just needed to let it out...

I really hate myself for not being able to tell my friends the truth about my problems... I'm too shy... I don't want to burden any one about it... I know my friends wouldn't mind... but I just can't even if i really wanted to... In denial? Pride? Embarrassment? Cowardice?

My problem is just some normal everyday thing.. I wish I can telepathically tell people to support me even if I don't open up...

After writing all this... I feel ashamed that I thought about those things... I feel much better though.. I just really needed to let it out... I wont do anything stupid...

6/4/11

Blog Luxury Award~ first time ever~

I haven't been blogging much since I started at my new office XD I still have no access to the internet.. I probably need to schedule some posts soon XD


Anyway, for the first time in my blogger life I got an award~ hihi Thanks Debbie~! Even though I don't have enough followers for this,  for the sake of getting to know each other (and aside from the fact I was super excited about this) I decided to post it anyway~







RULES: 
1. Link back to the person who passed you the award.
2. Share 7 random things about yourself.
3. Award 15 blogs.
4. Drop them a note and tell them about it.
SEVEN (7) RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
1. I was never creative or artistic when I was young. I only started drawing when I was on my 6th grade. Believe it or not, the anime Sailormoon changed my life XD HAHAHAHA!
2. I used to play the piano and the guitar since elementary to high school. I stopped playing when I was in college.
3. I never considered myself a workaholic but some people think I am...
4. Books are my crack~ I'm addicted to books like people are addicted to cigarettes or even drugs. I don't mind losing sleep or skipping meals when I have a book in hand.
5. I don't know how to swim. I'm scared of deep water BUT if you ask me to go surfing or diving, I wouldn't think twice to join you HAHAHAHA
6. I'm allergic to cigarette smoke and chocolates.
7. I can be a total dork when I'm comfortable with the people around me.

Now for the tagging~ Here are the blogs I like reading~